sunny

hello lovelies :) :) did you watch the academy awards????? fun!



it is so lovely out today! i was surprised when i went for a short (like really quick) run this morning, sun was up and i don't remember it being that sunny earlier in the day. i assumed it would be like a blizzard since it was nice yesterday and usually we get the opposite the following day here...but its okay! im watching mr ladybug #3 right now...hmm needs a name, stephen :) yea. so stephen is just crawling next to the photograph on my windowsill, of my cat :) okay so i think im seeing alice this weekend sooo excited!!!!! a lot of people mentioned that they were seeing it this past weekend...for those of you who did, how was it? ohh stephen just flew onto the blinds...

class in a bit so i gotta jet, but ill talk to you all later, hope you have great days xox

countdown

hey lovelies :) :) GUESS WHAT'S TONIGHT? the academy awards yeeeeeeeeiii. so excited. sooo. hmm i dont even have a tv here so hopefully i can watch some online, if that exists :( that would be awful to miss it. i used to watch like the entire thing started at 5pm with all the segments but i think ill just watch the event mainly tonight as i have stuff to do. i feel like i haven't seen a lot of the films involved which is a bit sad. ahh okay im also very excited just for the hosts (steve martin and alec baldwin) because they are so fucking funny. anyone seen "it's complicated"? amazing, and especially with meryl streep who i adore. oscarsss

hosts

okay, moving on. ohh i received my very first wedding invitation today. for my cousins summer wedding. i've never been to one before, and she's the first of the grandchildren to be married, second to be engaged as one couple haven't been married yet. im so excited. but its also a bit scary because this means that we're getting older. i mean, she's one of the oldest cousins but i don't plan to be married for like 10 years so i hope no one's expecting anything :P hehee though my grandmother (only grandparent left) asks me often if i have a boyfriend. i don't, and i believe she's disappointed but i will have one soon Granny don't worry.

so i was planning on having an excited picture of a new pb+c my first, but the store had just 3 kinds, and i wanted a plain one...i thought i would go for the honey one but they were all best before like a few days ago :( i told the person in the store about it. just in case...

i was happier this morning but now im so homesick ahhhh but it was super gorgeous out like HOT! hope you all have lovely days. xox

march sixth

hello lovelies :) :) any exciting plans for the weekend? me not so much. studying. other things perhaps.


pjs are comfy but these
don't keep you very warm
sometimes

i actually didn't want to post that photo it seems odd. but i don't have many others to choose from as i didn't take food pics so i guess i'll have to deal with it.

im going to be a downer again but i cannot help it. i was realising yesterday after meeting with my 'person' um that my mind is so weird, and i seem to be constantly dealing with some internal thing, a bunch of anxiety isssues and stuff and its never nothing and one is always stronger than the other. maybe im full blown ed but then it subsides and im in my anxiety and fears and phobias and either way its so hard to keep going sometimes and its like what the fuck is wrong with me? am i so unstable that my mind needs to keep holding on to some type of disorder or fear or phobia?? its so so so so sooo stupid. im not usually this pathetic and reading this will be painful because i hate to be so negative, and i promise im not usually like this. or at least i didn't used to be. okay sometimes maybe i want to be in the middle of one of these disorders for something to latch onto but there are so many things going on in my mind that i DON'T want to be dealing with, all internal so its not like i have a tough life. maybe its harder sometimes that way. i'm not even making sense. and i totally don't blame you if you turn away at this point. but i just want to let you know that i'll be making an effort to keep this little love life more positive soon okay? :) because reading many of your posts actually makes me feel happier and i should not be making people read this. does anyone else have like other issues besides anything related to eds...maybe phobias and stuff? you don't have to share it if you don't want to.


phewwwwf anywho i will change the subject. oh my god okay i keep seeing ladybugs in my place. its so weird. one appears and flies for a while and eventually dies. sad i know but like i guess inside is not the best place to live. and then another one appears. i just saw one now. but i actually see two...ahhh where are they coming from? maybe there's a nest. do ladybugs have nests aha i have no idea. okay i fully just spotted another one. this is weird. 5 in here now, 3 alive and two dead. wow im such a spazzzz today ehehe sorry but yea :P

i will talk to you all later xox

fwidayyy

heyooo lovelies :) :)


coffee is life


how is everyone? almost one school week down since i've been back. wooppp. chyea :P


my own version of pb+j oats :)

so...today i had a group presentation in my theatre/modern/history classes. i really hate doing presentations like that. i know that i love acting and want to do that but i get so nervous being in front of people, especially when im myself, presenting work and such scaaary. anywhot went alright. but i haaate myself like i was crap really. its so pathetic because i love acting but i feel like i just let myself down. but omggg it was so windy i was literally trying not to fall over when i walked. i remember my first year at uni and this new city was so windy and i was not used to it and got so upset when i would try to walk and just almost fall over when the wind blew from the side aha especially.

ahahahaha clearly i need photography lessons :P

after we finished our presentation i felt a bit of a lift off my shoulders and felt happy ish walking back, but that happens and then it goes away. like it feel sso nice because its like you feel happy for no reason then i realise that i used to feel like that almost all the time. i dont mean to be all like ohh wo is me but honestly its rare. and then i feel sad and i wish that when i completed things i could feel relieved but for some reason it just goes away and i cannot relax and something else comes up. i hate this so much. but enoughhhhh of that i hope everyone is well ill talk to you later xox

heyoo

hello loveliesss :) :) quick post as i gosta dash, aha i know my posts are always short but i really have an excuse this time. ohhh my god i have so many bananas i don't know why i didn't realise and they are ripening at the same time. i have no flour, no more ww left but any recipes sans flour? counted like 13 yesterday and a few are gone :P

randoms...



blurryness is sexyy

finished my last midterm yesterday and no more large exams till april, just lots of assignments, tests, essays so maybe that's partially good? its grey out today. hmm . not nice really. im not sure if winter is over or not, im still expecting to wake up one morning to snow plows, blankets of snow and high winds. i think mr groundhog said a long winter but im not positive. i feel like i read that on someone's bloggie.

anywho i hope you all have superb days ill talk to you soon xox

ps. i had to go and came back to finish this, i left like 5 min before my class, which takes me 15 minutes to walk to...if i run. oops :( but i got most of the notes in anyway. seriously though i do need to run now as i have more class and meetings and such but lskdjflksdjflkj it was raining slash hailing or whatever and random big drops of water kept splashing on me.

dumbo

hello lovelies :) :)



i was watching Dumbo last night for part of my film final assignment (its not about watching the movie, its just one of my sources though that would be nice :) ) and WOW that movie is sad. i remember finding it sad as a child but some of those scenes just rip my heart out...


like this one, i was completely in tears :(

and the sad music along with it...ahhh almost killed me. but its cute, i love that movie and i have not seen it in a while. it's strange that when i watched it at age 20 i have a different emotional connection to when i was little, and certain scenes touched me differently.



i have a midterm today, the one that was postponed from before the break because of a snow day. soooo hope i do alright! i just want to go home, but after reading a lovely blogger's post yesterday, on just being in the moment, im trying not to rush things. but its hard. i hate being sad and just little things make it worse like when im feeling sick. i remind myself that my life is more fortunate than others but honestly i feel like its all relative and it doesn't matter what you have when you're upset, nothing seems to matter. i hate being so negative here so i'm sorry if anyone's reading. i need to be happyyy. okay. i hope you all have a nice day :)

xox

hey

hello lovelies :) :) how is your day going? i've had a class, went grocery shopping and i have more class and homework and such later today.

i don't know why i'm sad right now but im just really homesick, and that's a bit stupid i know but i can't help it...and 6 weeks seems so fucking far away :( some people don't ever want to go home when they get to uni but i've never been that way. oh well. sucksss :P

anyway sorry for the lame post and i'll talk to you later xox

i am canadian

hello lovelies :) :)


doesn't my honeybear look a bit evil here?

before i forget (like i could forget this) YEAAAA CANADA WOOOOP :) omg so intense. but so worth it. and to the states that was amazing though, i did not like the fact that they got a goal in the last like 30 sec but i have to admit that it was pretty amazing stuff, but im happy we won.

i start classes today again, well in about an hour actually. i went for a short run just after i woke up and it was raining, though sometimes running in the rain isn't to awful. and now the suns out :D anywho i hope you all have lovely days and ill talk to you soon. xox