monday

hey lovelies :) :) i hope your weekends were decent. or amazing. or whatever. i was at my cottage for a few days as i probably won't be up much if i work on weekends, not sure yet. i was going to post tomorrow morning but wasn't sure if i'd be able to fit it in at that point so we just drove back and i thought...whyy not :P

breaky today was red river, i made it for my parents aha they said it was good :)



im stopping by a place for potential work in a few minutes...worried but honestly this is soo ridiculous i've been home from school over a month and no job :(

anyway, the cottage was nice, it was actually really warm there, sunny mostly and not too windy.

im sort of thinking of selling things on a site, like older or vintage/homemade items...i don't have a ton but it's an idea i'm thinking over. i feel like it's a lot of work, well i'm sure it is! i don't mean a lot of things, maybe the etsy one :) do any of you sell items on there?

i made these aha i was going through my parents stuff and they were giving things away and i cut off my mom's old jeans, they look pretty tard-ish though eh??

my dad was snapping photos like a crazed photographer of...me doing dishes :) ahaha and i stupidly left these at the cottage...my raybans, they're actually my dad's old old old ones :D so i put them on when i was cleaning up after dinner and he decided to capture that moment.

chyeaa

ohh and i received a purchase (well i made one i mean) from my breakfast shop and i just wanted to show the wrapping because it's absolutely beautiful and lovely and amazing, totally put a smile on my face

i love the details and little additions, its very unique.

hmm so its weird, i get these memories associated with other places and points in my life (good or bad)... i guess that's common, sort of an association thing. often bad feelings associated with bad memories. but for my cottage, i don't know how to explain but this summer is starting to remind me a bit of one i had when i was 15, a bit to do with weight, and i feel sort of eager to do some of the things i did then, not all of it is negative/poor habits but sort of? but i feel like it won't be unhealthy. i hate that so much of my 'happiness' depends on certain things like weight, clothing, food, and some other things, but its more of a control thing really, and i've been out of control and i don't like that at all. so i feel like this time i'm in a better mindset, i know i won't do anything stupid, i know i won't get away with anything. but i just ugh sorry this makes no sense but i have these confusing thoughts. i guess i like having plans and if i'm unhappy then i think having a goal or plan or point to reach i feel motivated.

eee :) i can only do mirror photos :P

okay well i reaaaallly need to go to the store to meet employers and stuff ahhh seriously this is getting lame on my part. i hope you're all doing well. love you lots