hey lovelies :):)
this was posted thursday, my brother's birthday but it was deleted with the whole blogger mishap:/ bummer...pretend its thursday, because im going to.
i've been sort of making changes, sort of not. i find when im stressed i resort back to older habits, well i guess not too old as i've developped some more recently. but i've been trying to have new foods or even ones that i used to have but i've been scared of as of late. that sort of sounds lame :/ i have a lot of things opened and not (i don't like to waste, but i mean i like a variety, and a few things i have yet to opened but i worry they might go bad)...and im going to try them all :) i just have been feeling like ugh gross i mean...like i don't deserve food. i just feel like i put so much effort and time and thoughts and stress and physically-draining time pretty much, into planning and eating or not eating and its just selfish. and im still odd about food around people, or judging myself, if i eat more than someone else especially if they're bigger im just thinking wtf jen no...:( i just feel like i should not be having this much sometimes. or for example if i eat breakfast and a morning snack, and say my brother has not had anything yet, i feel like he's going to make a comment, and it could just be thing completely light comment which would be like a daggar and i think i shoudl learn to accept things and not be sensitive. he didn't say anything, by the way, i just mean if that happened :P
breakfast was a lovely cold cereal bowl. similar to the above in that it included shredded wheat mostly, along with multigrain LIFE cereal and original special K, almonds, cinnamon, ginger and skim milk :)
afternoon snack bar :) i think its a canadian company, this one is my favourite flavours, its tiny but this compact sort of thing
i can't quite remember what was written in the original post. im so upset it was removed/deleted :/ but...hmm well i've had non cold cereal (oats) two days in a row. scottish, and then quick oats this morning, with an apple (it's been a long time since i've done that) and cinnamon, ginger, almonds and cinnamon life. quite simple compared to other days. simple is nice right :P? i have a photo for next time i believe.
russell peters, funnnnny canadian comedian if you don't know of him, one of the things my brother received last night thus we watched some :P
lots and lots and lots of love
...even more than cold cereal
(which is saying something :P)