last week i had to continue getting documents for something i'm doing for uni, and i had to go to my doctor. i do not like visiting the doctors, it really freaks me out. and it wasnt an actual 'physical' or what not just getting her signature and talking with her and just explaining things but just being there i don't want to touch things and just, yea...but she had been away (i had a visit planned for a week or so earlier) but had a medical emergency, i believe a family member died. and my mom was just making sure that i got everything i needed and earlier that week when i spoke with her she just stressed that, ad i was thinking my god my doctor probably won't want to hear any of this as she just lost someone and my issues are likely low down on the scale of importance relative to what happened to her. but anwho i went alone and it was quiet, yet istill waited a lot (not just because she was away but, this is just normal for canada, we might have health care but there are a few catches...but i won't get into that here)...anyway i mentioned that i was sorry she had to take time off, hinting but not mentioning a death or anything, just before i left and she thanked me, i feel like i broke a barrier and she was more natural. she's nice and kind and what not but very formal. but she looked a bit surprised and smiled when i left :)
i tried the gingersnap larabar not too long ago (we dont seem to get them in canada however my parents were in new orleans in early may and actually got a few for me)...i like them. i was really hyped up about it, like dreaming for ages as i could never find it anywhere ;( and although it was not as expected (i felt like it was going to have ginger pieces more like a candied type thing)...it was yummy and full of sweet spices like a gingersnap.
gingersnap oaties, oh yes i think i did :P...
plain quick oats in water, cinnamon, ginger + a tiny bit of 'grandma's fancy molasses' (not my granny :P) with balance granola, multigrain squares & 1/2 gingersnap larabar
i saw 'how to train you dragon' sat night which was so good :) and my mom and i (i had a night with her, went back home when my dad was away and made stir fry (lots of fresh ginger, onion, carrot + asparagas new loveee) and brown rice and tofu mmm. and we just spoke a bit about the moral, don't assume + judge and although its about dragons it can be applied to any war, really. it stetms from prejudice, mis-communication...people aren't born evil are they? perhaps sometomes, or someone gets put of hand, too much power, and then iy builds from there. it was a nice story and well done, amazing animation (the credits were insane, so many people involved) and lovely music/soundtrack by john powell :) i love film music (especially the scene and song linked on his name, its very beautiful) and i love film. so much. i love feeling inspired by something like a film, novel, song. i would love to act/be involved with films, its been my dream (+ goal....) for a while.
i didnt mean that in the title...i want this to be a good year, honestly. but i always say that and, lately, it hasn't happened. i need to make it better, and not simply assume things will fall into place.