Animal crackers and cocoa to drink,
That is the finest of suppers, I think;
When I'm grown up and can have what I please
I think I shall always insist upon these.
What do you choose when you're offered a treat?
When Mother says, "What would you like best to eat?"
Is it waffles and syrup, or cinnamon toast?
It's cocoa and animals that I love the most!
The kitchen's the coziest place that I know:
The kettle is singing, the stove is aglow,
And there in the twilight, how jolly to see
The cocoa and animals waiting for me.
Daddy and Mother dine later in state,
With Mary to cook for them, Susan to wait;
But they don't have nearly as much fun as I
Who eat in the kitchen with Nurse standing by;
And Daddy once said he would like to be me
Having cocoa and animals once more for tea!
i really want to go buy some right now :) i purchased a book called, ‘simple pleasures’, which is just filled with little things and recipes and quotes to make you enjoy life, even if it’s just a simple adjustment, a yummy cookie recipe (i think i should make it…butter & flour & chocolate!) or eating animal crackers…i love it so much, and i have been looking at it before attempting to sleep at night…after i read from my current book of course. because that’s a necessity.
this morning i went for a very short run, and it was so lovely outside! now, i usually hate it when it becomes warmer, especially because i get so hot. this happened today but i still managed to smile a bit when i first ventured out. windy though!! but, like a warm strong breeze, instead of a more bitter chill like yesterday. although i think i still prefer cooler weather ;P
so…a great deal of this post was written a little while ago (in case it doesn't make sense). specifically, the paragraph below.
im in a funny, loopy, weird mood. i just came from seeing ‘the artiste’ with my papa ;P ‘twas lovely ;) so great so great and it lifted my spirits. i just remembered why i wanted to act in the first place, and how…well, far from it i am now. i need to get better. seriously, or i will never come close to achieving anything that i dream of. my dreams are…longshots i guess. so i have that against me as well. but with my current state, well it just won’t happen unless i really put my heart into this. ugh but its so daunting…
i wish things were much easier, but i know that life doesn’t work that way---we much work hard to obtain what we truly want. and, since i don’t want to gain + to change my routines and my control (though i don’t feel in control), i have to look at the things that i want to achieve…and then sort of plan how i will get there. i think it’s best to look at it that way, because it makes me actually want to change (almost) if it means that i might sometime be a bit happy.
i know i’ve been very needy lately…but i just am a bit scared. posting here is likely not a good idea, since im just in a bad place and no one needs to hear about that. as a result, i’ve tried to limit it slightly. but i am so scared that i’ll be placed in some sort of program…never mind that im over twenty…i guess thats bull if your parents and/or doctors have a say? ;( please please please no. it’s as if i just don’t want to grow up…looking at it from an outside point of view, it’s just extremely pathetic. even when i try to explain the why’s (why are you doing this, jen?) to my mom, well it’s odd because i suddenly can see it all from her point of view. and it’s so stupid. i can’t explain anything to her without feeling so embarrassed with myself, because it just makes absolutely no sense. yet, instead of really trying to improve…here i am, writing about it on the internet. does anyone ever experience that?
anyway, i will leave you with yesterday’s breakfast. i wish my photos looked better. my food is never that pretty, i mean do people actually take serious time & effort to create a bowl of oats that looks so beautiful? or does it come naturally…that’s my question for today. i want to re-create something like that…but by then i’m sure the thing would be like stone cold.
banana-prune-almond oats ;)
enjoy your wednesday please ;P for me…
lots of love & banana oats xox