Thursday, December 23, 2010

its getting closer...

hey lovelies :):) everyone off school yet? (if you're still in school) close to christmas!!! those who celebrate, are you all ready? gifts put together, wrapped, cards made etc...

this morning i had a rushed but fairly yum breakfast, multigrain oats, i've never had this one before and it was very different to a plain oat-type grain (not like scottish or steel cut though)

random outfit, black uo tights with vneck, victoria secret (which ahh
we apparently just got in canada)..

ahh so, its been interesting this holiday. my brother is here for a few weeks while we get our place arranged, so its sort of liker when we were young, with the whole family together...yeayyy...hmmmph. im very controlling and like rigid i guess, not just with food. and im working on it, but..its just hard..its just that i try to keep my things separate, and get so anxious when people are around and touching my food, god that sounds so ridiculous. im a bit ridiculous i guess. and im just freaky about everything and like anxious and what not. so more people here creates more of that, if that makes sense. and then i get like upset and just am not that great to be around.

but i want this to be a good holiday. eee festive...

one of my favourite lunabars (nutz-over-choccc)

im not sure when i'll post next, i just have nothing great to say, and i hate making posts like this. its just depressing, even more so that im writing that its depressing and then writing about that...and just a bunch of odd outfit photos? ahh who wants that..

no one, and i hardly take photo photos anymore, i guess yanking out my camera and then rushing back to wash ad such before eating is taking a while :P

but i do like jcrew crewcuts :) teheee

i must jet but i wish you all happy, safe, relaxing holidays

xoxox love jen

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

wednesday december 8th

hey lovelies:):)

this morning i had coffee.....and then made yummy scottish banana figgy walnut oats!!! mmm i just purchased dried figs which i've never had to my recollection, besides like fig newtons :P and they taste a lot like fig newtons tehee..

im so upset, this is atrocious but honestly it looked pretty my camera was dying
and i guess i was rushed and never looked at the photo :(

but after hearing a lot about them i thought i'd try. first of all we had to return the first package, they were from turkey, not sure if that constitutes as "turkish-figs" but anywho they were like moldy or something gahh so i just found the only other type in the store imported from greece, so i'm not sure how fresh they are: kalamata dried figs, like the olives i guess aha? on their own they have a very tough skin and i cooked them so they softened in the oats this morning. the flavour is still quite strong so it didn't compliment the other additions to my oats but still a pretty good choice i think :P

i will try to (even if i don't blog it, heyy! even if i don't piccy it...) name my breakfasts, maybe just with oats but like title names, like "pine currant oats" aha after one of this lovie's one.

im not sure which jeans, i think they're just bdg higher waisted grey skinnies (UO) and a
gap thin white turtleneck, along with a woolish (mohhair?) long vest from banana

so...i have all my exams right now and im scuured. and a bit stressed. and also i had to change some because they were at the exact same time and all that stuff isn't yet confirmed so its sort of up in the air which, to mee, means more anxiety. but heyyoo its the holidays, which is making me nervous and i hate that honestly i love christmas i always have, i remember my old (i guess old old old place in a small town when i was younger) i just loved everything about it, and its supposed to be good so why the fuck can't i calm down? sorry:( sldkfjslkdfjlsdkj honestly its just stupid. not christmas i mean me. :) christmas is NOT stupid..and i would become sooo depressed like right after it, usually after the present opening thing :P like ahh another whole year until it comes again :( but now its not just presents, i mean we hardly get any as we get older so i enjoy more aspects of it, the weather at times, the music, family. anyway, enough of that.

today i just have studying, i want to go to shoppers to get some stuff, just like hair elastics, the new teen vogue since elle fanning is in it and she's adorable, and maybe something else like lip chap :P i also want to bake but we'll see..

ahaha see ya, ending with a wacko photo, love you lots