"the little girl wasn't supposed to know. she had been forbidden to play in the bramble maze. mamma and grandmamma had told her it was dangerous to go near the cliff. but sometimes, when no one was looking, she liked to do forbidden things"
- The Forgotten Garden by Kate Morton
hey lovelies :):)
i've been trying to be positive each day, but im having a bit of trouble. ive been feeling very sick/ill lately as well and have had not-so-nice symptoms which is both painful/annoying and scary for me. but...i guess i just have to keep going. its very hot too which isn't my first choice :P ahhh i long for autumn :)
a breakfast from home (my family's house) this past friday...after a very short run. i wasn't feeling that well at all :( it seems to be a bad trend... :/
"banana ginger oats"
oats with bananana, ginger, cinnamon, almonds + dry cereal (multigrain + "o's")...hoping i'd feel less ill :/
my first kind bar, almond&apricot, no mention of coconut in the title but i should have read further. not that i don't like it...its just not something i'm used to or choose to eat often (or at all really :P) and this was filled with large pieces. but it was actually okay :)
i've been having a bit of trouble (well a lot) sleeping. i normally take a long time to fall asleep, unless im dead tired or take something (which doesn't always help though)...but lately even if im dead tired, i hear so many noises and think about things and just it takes hours often. and then i wake up early for numerous reasons and cannot fall back asleep. i know i've read something about lack of calories affecting sleep, and i never bothered to worry about it since i felt i was getting enough. but lately i might have less calories (not necessarily food and not really on purpose initially) at dinner, like my pm and evening snack can almost equal the same amount, which seems scary...either i eat much less for dinner or my snacks are too high. but it evens itself out i think. unless im at home and eat with my family, then the meal is higher and i try to even things out and have less as a night snack/dessert...something i found difficult at my cottage since the dinners often amounted to more calories than when i make mine at home for myself. but should that affect my sleep? i mean, a while ago when i ate much much much less i don't remember having too many issues with sleep. unless i've forgotten. or maybe it wasn't something i focused on since my mind was on other things. ugh its annoying but more so just scary, and hopeless. not being able to sleep is like one of the more hopeless and helpless feelings. i just start to cry sometimes just willing myself to fall asleep but obviously that does not help. and i worry i'll get ill if i don't sleep enough. and then my whole day im worrying about, okay when will i go to bed this time, what if i sleep even less, what will happen...and so on. does anyone else suffer with this?
i shall go now :) and i hope you're all doing well. until next time lovely loves :P